.Its.just.me.

2010-04-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

I'm most likely gonna change my blog again.
And I'm most likely. Gonna get bored of it again.

Sometimes. I wonder.
Why I even keep one in that case.
Seriously. Can anyone ans me? HAHA.
Cause. Well. I most certainly can't.

2010-04-21T02:51:00.003+08:00

I really do not like people who look down on other people.
If you're one of them. Really.

Please fuck off.
I'm throwing these people out of my circle of friends and all.
I swear. Cause there's no point.

2010-04-14T01:45:00.002+08:00

Music and I. :)
Cause 3/4 of dance is about the music.

2010-04-13T23:00:00.004+08:00

Basics. Basics. Basics.

Re-drill basics.

Bounces and whatever not.

And for goodness sake.
Be happy. :) Cause, honestly, it's a small thing.
My different mad moods are hitching a roller coaster ride nowadays.

I will handle my bad mood-ish thing like an adult.

2010-04-13T02:57:00.002+08:00

Fuck off. As long as I'm happy. I don't give a shit.
I do not need friends who are consistently being assholes.
Esp when I'm trying my very very best to keep the friendships alive.
Do not come to me only when you're upset.
Cause I don't see the point anymore.
And I won't entertain you guys either.
I'm really happy now.
So just.

Please go away.

2010-04-13T02:05:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's activities. :D

I HAVE AWESOME FRIENDS. :D
I mean it. :)

Dear. Xinyi. Lh and Sc. :)
Another bitching session. XD

My FO clique. :)
Birthdays. 3 at one go. :D
And a farewell party.

I'm contented. :) HAHA. :) I really am. :)
Can feel the love. :) I mean among each other. :)

And my man. :)
Who takes GREAT care of me and pampers me like no other. :D
Isn't he just awesome? :)
*snuggles in your arms*

And finally. Music and I.
Dance. :) at home. by myself. :)

And crunches. :)

If only everyday could be that meaningful/productive. :)

School's starting next week. *stares*
I didn't know. HAHA.
Awesome right? So smart.

2010-04-10T15:10:00.002+08:00

Abs. Where are you?
Darn. I've been slacking.
They're gone. )):

Haha. I'll get them back soon. :)

2010-04-10T07:02:00.002+08:00

:) I'm God damn blessed to have you baby.
Thank you. Your support means everything to me. <3

2010-04-10T01:03:00.003+08:00

Girlie. You're pushing it.
You know it. Smacks myself* ):

I hate it. I dun seem to know how to manage it anymore.
But nevertheless, I'll do it.
I'll try again. If I could do it before.
Why not now?

I'm downright upset with myself today.
I'm displaying like behavior of like I dunnoe. A baby. ):
I'm trying hard to be understanding towards him without compromising myself.
Be really passionate about my dance.
And do my studies well.
Be financially independent.
And get back the confidence which I previously had.

Each one seems to require like hell lot of commitment. )):

Ah. I know what to work to after tml's exams.
Oh yes. I'm having exams.
And my nose is killing me.

2010-04-09T12:05:00.002+08:00

I feel more of me. Is coming back.
Yet. I'm still loving you as much. :)

2010-04-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

As I was walking back from Tampines mall.
After having a great great meal with Hazel, Sc.
And a rather intense and deep pondering talk with Xinyi.
I suddenly thought. Am I happy?
I mean of course. I'm happy. With Lucas and all. :)
But probably not with my own own life.
Does anyone get what I mean?
I feel stagnant. Yah. Its ever since.
The holiday and all with him.
Feels like holiday mood ever since.

Yah. I've been pigging and bumming around.
God. I'm so not proud of that. )):
I know right? )):
I'll plan some activities for myself.
Next week onwards though.
Well, considering the fact that CFP test is this Saturday.

I think I have awesome awesome friends. :)
I'm glad we're all generally happy. :)

And honey. Who never fails to make me smile. :)
He's emotionally very very strong. Thank goodness. :)
And he's sweet. :) He pampers me a lot. :) HAHA. :)
He's really understanding too. :)
He's. Well. Everything I could ever ask for in a bf. :)
Baby's being with mother nature today.
Yah. He's stuck somewhere in the jungle. HAHA.
Watching people dig what's that again? shell scrape was it? O.O
AWW. Honey. I love my bed. :X HAHA.
And the fact I have a proper toilet. :)
With no mosquitos swarming around me and all. :X
Come back soon honey. I miss you.
I can't wait to be in your arms again sweetie. <3
I love you. So so much. <3

Right. I gotta grow even stronger. :) HAHA.
Trust me I will.
Strive for your own happiness. :)

2010-04-04T21:52:00.003+08:00

I need to study. I need to remember.
I'm the eldest daughter.
If anything happens. I'm the next one who has to bring in income.
And. I'm emotionally strong enough I know.
If I have to suddenly bear everything. I know I can.
But can I bring in enough income, given now my current situation.
And. Support everyone comfortably.

I seriously seriously doubt.
Therefore, I really need to study.
Really really. Argh.

And yet, do the thing I love the most.
Dance. :) Both requires a lot a lot a lot of commitment.

Plus baby of course.
And my friends. I'll do it. Enough trying.
I'll succeed this round.

And when I mean studying.
I meant by ace. not cs and bs. and stuff.
I did alright this term. Next term.
I'll step it up even further.

2010-04-03T11:51:00.001+08:00

I am no. ordinary girlie. :)
Know me. And you'll know. :)
I'm uniquely me. :)

2010-04-03T01:29:00.002+08:00

T.T ah. omg. I seem to have deproved again.
See. slack some more. )):

URGH. Its like a constant improve and deprove battle within myself.
Does anyone get it? O.O

I'll get it back again.
And I so won't let it drop this time.
grumble*

2010-04-02T13:51:00.002+08:00

HOLY. OMG. WATCH!!!!

Holy
Holy
Holy
Holy

I so can't freaking wait~!!!:D

2010-03-30T11:45:00.002+08:00

Waking up in your arms. :)
Spending every min with you. :)
Staring into your eyes.

Baby. You're simply amazing. :)
These few days with you?
Made me realize the same thing you did.
I didn't know I could love someone that much anymore. :)
Talk about letting your guard down.
Letting someone in. :)

I love you baby. Very very much. <3
Thank you for the wonderful time. :)
And silly moments and laughters we share together. :)
They're really really unforgettable. :)

Earrings. Earrings. :) *SMILES* :)

2010-03-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

I'm so tempted to type hate + parents.
But goodness. I know its just because I'm angry.

I headed for the toilet to vomit out after I reached home.
I was still feeling unwell I suppose.
I was resting. As in sitting on the bloody floor beside the damn toilet bowl full of puke.
And my dear mama. Stormed into the toilet. And screamed. REALLY SCREAMED.
It's 12.30am. Where have you been? Why the heck are you late?
It's REALLY REALLY funny cause.
The last time I recalled looking at the watch getting off the bloody cab was 11.24?
I was damn early. I said I'll be home at 12.
Imagine how much rage there was in me.

And then. She send daddy down. To scold me.
About not eating my antibiotics when I've already done so. -.-
Seriously. I was gonna burst. I wanted to scream at the both of them.
That I'm not a fucking kid anymore.
I was feeling weakish/woozy after puking some more.
Can you imagine how bloody pissed I was?

And my curfew. Really. Goodness. I can't take it anymore luh.
It's stupid.to have a curfew at this age.

I know there's no point complaining about this.
Because. As a grown up. -how fucking ironic-
It's not as if complaining about the fact
I have to be home early today or any other day would change anything. So ya.
I wish to have a civilized talk with them someday about this topic.
Oh right. No room for discussion was it?

Reasonable eh? Totally reasonable.

Whatever. I'm off to bed.

2010-03-22T22:05:00.002+08:00

BABY SENT ME A BEAR BEAR. :D
:) Totally totally made my day. :)

I SHALL NAME IT LUCAS. :) HAHA. <3

2010-03-22T06:39:00.002+08:00

H-E-L-L-O.. :DD

I am down with fever, its freaking 38. 6 now.
And god damn throat infection again!! HAHA.
In fact. I dunnoe what's possessing me. But.
I think I still have the energy to actually dance. HAHA. O.O
Or go for a run. Or do whatever insane shit. HAHA.
Fortunately. I don't desire to kill myself or land up in some hospital bed. HAHA.
So yah. :) I'm being an awesome kid resting in bed. HAHA. :D

If I dun feel weak enough to whine or complain this round.
I dun really expect myself to whine the next round. HAHA. :) Seriously.
Doesn't really make sense if. A person grows weaker right?
I mean. HAHA. We should all be growing stronger. :) So yah. :)

RECOVER GIR. Got a lot of things to do. HAHA.
And weirdly lot of passion burning in you. So yah.
RECOVER. RECOVER RECOVER. :)

2010-03-21T15:45:00.004+08:00

HELLO. :)

It's been hmm. ages since I did an actual post here.
My life's been alright. Not smacking-ly awesome. :)
I had my own share of tears. :) Mainly yesterday. :) But,
It's great. :) I've been well, an awesome kid, studying. :) Haha.
Yah. Wonder what's wrong with me either. :) HAHA.
CFP exams within a month. :) I really intend to ace it. :) hahas.

Yes yes. Doesn mean I'm not in the production means I've stopped dancing. :)
I've been practicing too. :)
Going to classes. And well, my own drills at home. :)
It gets kinda dry sometimes. :)
But its fine. :) Comfort zones make me sick. :)
I feel queasy all over. But yah.
I guess. :) Take it slow. I won't stop breaking through though. :)
I really gotta learn to be braver. :) REALLY. :)
It's really really way off my comfort zone. And I've never advanced out before.
So I dun exactly know how. ): But. I'm trying.

And honey's been great. :) He's been there for me. :)
Seems like I'm loving him more each day.
Without well, losing focus of what. I wanna do.
Or have to do. And taking care of myself too.
Which is smacking-ly awesome I tell you.

And I've been doing situps *strikes out almost* every night.
Hitting the gyms extremely regularly. O.O
MY ABS ARE BACK. :) Sort of. HAHA. :)

And I'm gonna dye my hair back black soon too.
Cause I realize it affects getting a job. -.-
Besides. I do wanna have a professional image.
It's well, necessary. :)

It's a choppy post but gah. whatever. :)

2010-03-18T23:40:00.003+08:00

Cause the world's a mean mean place.

When they need you. :)
Oh that's when they're nicest.
Bunch of hypocrites.

No I'm not upset. Neither do I feel like stabbing myself over and over.
Or feel like a loser. This time. I feel none other than pissed.
Neither am I emo man.
Its just how the world goes.
Niceness. Sometimes. really fucking doesn't pay.
But whatever. Seriously.

I'm ranting. Leave me. :)

2010-03-17T01:06:00.007+08:00

Why is it i could relate?

I lost motivation before.
I was shot at before.
I was left out before.
I ask myself sometimes. whether it is worth it or not.
But I've never wanted to give up on it before. :)

Sometimes. It gets so tiring. Really.
It's endless picking ups of yourself. HAHA.
And getting back the motivation yourself.
And convincing yourself that it is worth it.
And having confidence even though. you feel like shit.

But somehow. I'm still here. HAHA.
It's been so so much lesser in the past year. HAHA.
I pray it stays that way. :)

I'll grow even stronger.
Watch me baby. :) HAHA.
I'm freaking motivated. :D

I will rid of my laziness. I swear.
Comfort zones. I feel queasy thinking about it already. O.O

2010-03-12T02:31:00.001+08:00

Oh. Come on girl.
Don't be such a pussy.

2010-03-11T23:13:00.002+08:00

I feel so much better. :)

Let's pray I do not let myself fall into these dumb, feel-like-loser situations again.

2010-03-10T14:40:00.002+08:00

I feel like laughing
Facebook says.

-I will cheat on the person.
-I will not remain loyal. HAHA.
-I am a damn tricky person. As quoted "you might even laugh behind his back and leave him for another" HAHAHA.

FEEL INTIMIDATED BABY. :D
HAHA. LOLS.

So dumb. HAHA. :)

2010-03-08T01:55:00.011+08:00

I know this post is weirdly choppy. HAHA.
God knows why. HAHA.

Right. After a week of darn useless rotting. :D
I've finally managed to pick up pace and get my life somewhat back on track. :D
Which I must say feels extremely satisfying after a week of well, -nothings-

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Whoo. My Saturday was WELL SPENT. :)
With the god damn nice and weirdly possessed Lianghao.
Who seems to have lost his bitchiness.
I swear. It's so unlike him :D HAHA.
And my dear dear bestie.
Who was somehow on the contrary, being an extreme bitch that night. HAHA.

Which leaves me bring the only NORMAL one around. :) HAHA.

Well, it was great. :D

Some how, we ended up watching Alice in Wonderland with my parents.
Which well, I have to say was quite a disappointing show.
I mean I expected so much better esp when Johnny Depp was acting in it.
He's such a great actor. :D Well, I LIKE HIM. :)
Well, they have extremely interesting concepts for their wonderland and all.
But it was true that it was kinda un-humorous and well damn by the book.
Which kinda makes it a little dull. O.O

Well, my favorite character was. the smiling kitty. :D
Simply put, well, because it was really adorable. :D

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After so god damn much persuasion.
And I meant god damn much as in YEARS. literally.
Dear dear daddy finally -extremely unwillingly- agreed to knock down my ugly wardrobe. :D
Which means. revamping of my room can begin extremely soon!!
I CAN'T HARDLY WAIT. :D
MY FINGERS ARE SIMPLY ITCHING TO GRAB STUFF OFF IKEA SHELVES AND DECORATING MY ROOM. :D

Well, thats if my puny little arms can even lift up the furniture in the 1st place. :D HAHA.

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To club or not to club.
I might actually decide go this round. :)
Cause I miss my girls so damn much. :D
And God knows when they are meeting again after this round.

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Dance. God damn. I'm so bloody grateful to who ever's above.
Cause after 2 weeks, I'm finally feeling the music again.
Seems like I've decided to intervene my laziness and all at the right time. :)
Meaning. Period in between where I missed dance the most and when I haven deproved a lot.
Am I making sense? :) Passion's not strong. But it's coming back. Real fast.

Well, that doesn mean my friends won't see me anymore alright? :D HAHA.
I'll still make time for you guys. :D

Express what you feel within, through movements on your body.
On stage-- It's where I truly belong.

push limits.

I swear. I'm feeling damn awesome.
And god damn enthusiastic about my life. :D

2010-03-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

ME LOVES XINYI AND LIANGHAO.
AND DANCE. :D HAHA.

LESSONS GONNA START NEXT WEEK.
AND DARN JOB. )):

BUSY BUSY BUSY. BUT THATS HOW I LIKE IT. :)

2010-03-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

2010-03-04T10:58:00.001+08:00

Girlie.
Do not be lazy.
Seriously.

2010-03-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

O.O Let me clarify this.
My post before. Wasn't referring to me.
I'm extremely happy with him.
We've never never fought before.
Neither do we have personality clashes.
I've never got to compromise for him to be happy.
Neither has he gotta compromise for me to be happy.

There's no major issue in this relationship which requires huge compromises from either party.

2010-03-03T12:20:00.003+08:00

I hope everyone's relationships pick up soon.
Seems like everyone's going through.
Well, shit. ):

2010-03-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

Zorro was like that when he 1st came. :)

Now he's like that. O.O HAHA.

I went to IKEA today. :D
Check out the prices of the things that I want. :)
HAHA. Mounted to 1000 plus. -.-

Plus I went to look for a job. :)

2010-03-02T10:20:00.002+08:00

Passing thoughts.
It isn't affecting mt at all though.
HAHA. Like I said. Just passing thoughts. :)

2010-03-02T00:12:00.001+08:00

Passion for dance.
Where are you?

2010-03-01T01:12:00.006+08:00

Wolfman was boo and boring-ish.
Seriously, DO NOT WATCH.

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I will never lose balance of my life.
Watch me. :)

I'm confident I can handle it. :)
I mean. After being through so much. I'm confident I can. :)
Be the sweet girlfriend. When the time calls for it.
Yet, be independent enough to know what I deserve and look after myself. :)
Walk away in any given situation, if I'm not treated right.
Though, I do know he would never. <3

I never wanna be caught in that madness again.

Wong xinyi.Please slap me. If I ever fall into that path again.
Really. I'll hate myself tuck loads if I lack self management.

But haha. It won't happen.
I'll never let it happen.
Watch me. :)

What I say now. Stands for months.
Or years or how long it goes.
It won't be easy. :)
But I really think I can do it. :)

2010-02-28T00:18:00.003+08:00

God damn.
I love you so much.

It's about doing little things to show that you care. :)
And well. Shouting out to the world on my blog how much you actually mean to me?
That's my little thing baby. <3

2010-02-26T13:00:00.002+08:00

:D Exams are done. Though it has left me with bloody flu.
And like huge eye bags that no amount of concealer can cover anymore.
And not to mention the fatigue and numerous amount of -shut downs- in my brain.
(Judging by the amount of hours I get to sleep this week, it's seriously hardly surprising)
I AM STILL. JUMPING AND RUNNING AROUND IN MAD JOY. :D

Whoo~!! :D I'm glad its done. :D

Seriously. My crazy hectic mad life begins. :D

2010-02-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

Space. :)

2010-02-25T18:24:00.010+08:00

Smiles. I'll get the A.
Oh yes I so bloody will.
Nothing can really stop me. :)

Coming end of exams. Me can't wait. :D
Tml. Sleep. Recover man. HAHA.
Sat. dance workshop/family visitng.
Sun. ... ... Errrr. TBC. :D
Mon. Job hunt! Dance.

Life's picking up again. :D Whoo.

And I got a bloody photo shoot soon~!!! :D
I don't know the details yet though.
Can't wait. Can't wait. Can't wait!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2010-02-25T10:59:00.002+08:00

I absolutely hate being sick.
Esp at this point of time.
Esp throat infection.
Drains all your energy away.
2 day Mc.
But I intend to go for tml's paper. :)

Medicine. Sleep.
Wake up. Prepare.

Oh. Stop being such a pussy girl. :)
HAHA. :)
I'm alright luh.
I'll mug all night if I have to.
Cause tml's paper. Can get A one. HAHA.
No worries.
Just kinda energy-less/drained. :)

2010-02-24T18:33:00.003+08:00

Because, it's just me.

I rather solve my own problems myself.
I don't like having to depend on people to solve it for me.
Cheer me up. Or make me feel better.
Because it just feels like.
I can't take care of myself if I need someone to help me all the time.
And that's a terrible feeling to feel.
Being unable to keep yourself happy.
Or being unable to take care of yourself.

I mean it when i say i enjoy my own independence.
Makes me feel good about myself. :)
Well, basically.
Reminds me that well,
I love myself. :)

2010-02-23T17:56:00.006+08:00

Ah fuck it.
I hate this. I seriously do.
Being rejected is like fuck.
But means I can improve more.

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I went to enroll for the damn professional cert just now.
The notes are 2 inches thick. O.O

Literally.

They're gonna cover this in a month.
Lessons are twice a week. 4 hours each. -.-
It's a lot. Seriously a lot.

And I still wanna do well in my dance. ):
I still intend to go for hh open classes.
And I do still wanna learn locking. -.-
And take part in events and such. If there are luh.
And I have friends!! I wanna go out with them too.
And of course, baby!!

I'll go mad. Seriously. O.O
Everything seems like its gonna take up a lot of my energy.
I honestly think I'll get emotionally drained.
But. Then again, I'll still go for it.

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Today's me bad day. Really.
For various number of reasons?
Just that well, I dun wanna spell out. ):

Shall find happy things to do and cheer myself up!!
I shall go pamper myself. :D Haha.

2010-02-21T23:34:00.005+08:00

I had so much bloody fun tonight. :D
Seriously. :D And Gin said it was a master class choreo. O.O
I was scared shit in the beginning. HAHA.
And I caught it. :D Well not perfectly. Last 8 was gone case. HAHA.
But nevertheless, I'm so proud of myself~!! :D

It's an achievement for me okay? HAHA.

And I did jazz today. Well. I died. But, it was fun~!! :D
Ironic I know. :)

I wanna say doesn't matter if I got in or not. HAHA.
But. O.O It slowly starting to matter. HAHA.
Damn. )): Ahh. )): I hate this part. Seriously. )):

I love dancing so bloody much. Seriously. :D
Sure. The let downs are bad enough to break your heart sometimes.
Oh I mean it. Esp getting rejected from items. It sucks.
It can be damn damn demoralizing. Feel like a fucking loser after.
But being able to express the music. Omg. Nothing can replace the feeling. :D

2010-02-21T13:01:00.002+08:00

LAW IS AN OPEN BOOK TEST.

*SCREAMS HYSTERICALLY AND RUNS AROUND ROOM*

I knew it long ago actually. HAHA.
Just that I didn't feel the effects until today.
HAHAHAHA. O.O

I'm supposed to be madly stressed. :D HAHA.
Tonight's auditions won't be easy. REALLY
Bryan says he'll choose the best out of the best only. HAHA.
HAHA. I shall TRY. :D *glups*
I hope everyone's too busy mugging to come. HAHAHAHAHA.

Exams and get hyped up and ready for tonight. O.O
I can do this man. :) HAHA.

Back mugging. Whoo.

2010-02-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

Floor the love.

This year felt different. Felt like everyone was together as one.
We're all there to celebrate our love for dance.
And it felt great. Knowing you're in this place. where like.
Everyone loves what you love doing too.

Do I make sense? :) Haha. :)

2010-02-19T16:58:00.007+08:00

Oh. NOTHING.
Just a childhood friend. :) :) :)

2010-02-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

This is to Jas Koh and Serene.

I STILL LOVE YOU ALL LOADS. :D

2010-02-17T16:55:00.003+08:00

I'm going for this thing. :)
Which actually gives me the cert to be a financial planner.
Great! Doesn't sound very interesting, I know. HAHA.
But why not? :) I mean. My resume will look better. HAHA. :)
And it serves as an alternative path for me. :)

Gotta register by Monday at some weird company.

Sunday there's auditions.
For another production.
Exams start on Monday.
But I think I'll actually go for it. -.-

The production's at scape.
It's a huge one. :)

And damn it. Exams. 4 papers.
I've covered 2 subs. Great.
I'm so fucked up.
I really got to speed up.

I feel stressed. I dun feel very confident now.
But I think I'll be fine in the end. :)
It always turns out fine. :)
Really. HAHA. It always does. :)

2010-02-17T00:06:00.004+08:00

Oh. How I wish I were in my very own lollipop-candy-ish-chocolate world.
Wouldn't it be lovely? :)

2010-02-16T12:11:00.007+08:00

So. On the 2nd day of cny. :)
When everyone's bai nian-ing and feasting on great yummy goodies and
not to mention. putting on tons and tons of weight. :D

Healthy me. Went Hiking. :D HAHA.
*claps claps claps* I'm so damn proud of myself. :D
Yah. I wondered what the hell possessed me to say yes to dear dear daddy.

Mummy decided to bring an umbrella. HAHA.
Don't ask me why either. :)

After which, I took a more-than-deserved bath.
And rushed of for sc's birthday party. :D

Hectic day huh? But I love crazy days like these. :)
Somehow makes me feel useful rather than well, a total good for nothing bummer. :)
Whoo. :D

2010-02-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

Do not. give in. to insecurity.
Curb it. Yourself.

2010-02-15T12:12:00.003+08:00

I think it's the toughest yet most essential thing in life.

2010-02-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Valentines was great!!
I had flowers. perfect dinner. great company.
BUT a ridiculous card in which I'm on the verge of burning.

I mean come on HAHA.
The card wrote like

"I'll be your no. 1 bf, this is not being cocky, it's confidence" HAHA.
THERE'S A FINE LIKE BETWEEN BOTH BABY. HAHA.
And you crossed yours probably like miles. HAHA.
But I like. and love. :)
Ah. I know you're smiling while reading this. :) HAHA.

THANK YOU. :DD
YOU'RE AWESOME.
BUT I NEED NOT SAY.
YOU ALREADY KNOW IT. :)

Heels. HEELS. God damn heels makes your feet blister like mad.
They're like god damn woman's enemy yet best friend for crying out loud. ):
I mean you have dman sexy legs and a damn nice butt.
But omg. kill me. the blisters after that. O.O god. ): HAHA.

I SHALL TURN IN NOW. SLEEPY. :D

2010-02-11T23:44:00.002+08:00

I will not whine. :)

I will state. :) But no whining. :)
The only thing I would actually complain to is my blog. :) HAHA.
Unless it's really bad. lols.

I DON FEEL WELL TONIGHT.
I FEEL LIKE PUKING. MUST BE THE GASTRIC THIS MORNING. -.-
WHILE I WAS ON THE BUS THIS AFTERNOON, THERE'S AN UNREASONABLE BITCH AUNTY WHO PUSHED AND SHOVED ME. AND THEN SCOLDED ME. -.-

But. I still wanna freestyle so I will.
Oh goodness. I'm so damn stubborn.
Someone should just punch me. KO me.
So I can get some rest. HAHA.

I'm in a weird mood.
I was happy earlier.
Must be pms. HAHA.

2010-02-11T01:33:00.001+08:00

I should really be more understanding.
Since I've been in that situation before.

2010-02-10T23:56:00.004+08:00

BOO. My best friend is a meanieeee. D:

Look at her blog man.

www.starcouture.blogspot.com

But I still love her~!! Loads. :D

2010-02-10T00:32:00.002+08:00

Everyone seems to be improving.
Why am I in my own box again?

Expand. Expand. Expand.
But exams are tying me down real bad.
Smiles. Don worry. I've grown up. I know what I must do. :)

But I won't get left behind though, mark my words.

Sometimes. I wonder what I am striving for?
I mean. dance isn't gonna be my main career.
There are times luh. :) Haha. Dance until. Dun feel like dancing anymore.
But they always tide over. :) Haha.

Ignore me. I'm crapping. :)

2010-02-09T09:39:00.002+08:00

Focus
Study
Ownage. :)

Say bye to my life.
Well, on the bright side, it's just 3 weeks. :)

2010-02-06T20:16:00.007+08:00

Oh my. muthafuckin gosh. I'm brownish blond. -.-
Great. O.O HAHA. Just great.

2010-02-04T17:44:00.004+08:00

I have to be better than this.

I'm alright. :) HAHA.
Just a bit disappointed with myself. :)
Haha. :) Though my parents expectations are deemed unreasonable by most people.
And well, most would choose to ignore my parents. (It's a fact!)
Some how there's still this guilt in me.
Like. I've been a bad daughter.
Sure. I'm not angels and all that kinda sweet little stuff.
I'm not their cause of joy and all.

But, damn right. I know. I'm better than this.
I know I am, you know? Not gotta be better. I know I am already there.
Cause, I've seen myself done it and all.

Haha. Ah whatever.
Main point is. I'll not let this responsibility of being a good daughter slide any further.
Like I have let it the past few weeks. :)
No matter how madly irritating and crazy their expectations are.
I will live up to them once again. :)

And of course, from there. I'll ask them to cut me some slack. :)

It's my baby boy's birthday today~!!

I wish you could read boy.

Thanks for always loving me.
Greeting me so damn happily at the door each day.
Licking my hand when I'm feeling bule.
Ploping beside me whenever I'm feeling down.
Refusing to leave my side whenever I feel sad. (OH HE KNOWS, HE DAMN SMART)
Following me everywhere including the showers. HAHA.
Fetching me from my bedroom to downstairs each morning.
Waiting for me outside the toilet, no matter how long I take. :)

I know ALL dog owners say this.
And I can't really come up with anything more original.
But. I don't really know how I'll get by without you.
Happy birthday boy. <3
I love you so God damn much.

2010-02-02T22:14:00.007+08:00

Oh. Hardworking me. :D
I've been -AHEM- studious. :/
HAHA. oh yes I've been. :D

If you consider
Doing only one chapter.
Watching a movie.
Playing around.

Studious. HAHA.
EH.Beats doing NONE. :D
Okay okay. I shall concentrate later. :)
That is after I blog. :D HAHA.
I will finish at least 3 chaps before I sleep. :D

And it's off to the gym for me tml~!!! :D
Whoo. I'm happy. :D

Busy busy busy~!!
-Streamboat tml. :D
-Thursday is. Well a secret. :)
-Friday dinner with hy~!!! :D

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I will cease being so lazy from today onwards. :D
I will lead my life with even more enthusiasm. :D
WHOO~!! go me. :D

It really doesn't matter anymore. ):

2010-02-01T11:39:00.002+08:00

Pfp project people!!!
OMG.

yay~!! I found myself a locking teacher.
Aloy OFFERED~!! WHOO~!!
Okay fat liar. I forced him. HAHAHAHAA.
I'll go down to rp when I have the time.
Can't wait~!!!

Next to find myself a popping teacher. :)
Me thinks me ready.
I can control my muscles already.

And later a whacking teacher~!!

I can't freaking wait. Really. :)

2010-02-01T02:24:00.011+08:00

Muhahahas. :)
Freestyle is shiok.:)

Please ignore me.
I think it's best for you. Really ):
Don't come to my blog if you must.
I've made my decision long ago.
And it isn't gonna waver. ):
Take very good care of yourself. Okay? ?
I'm very glad and proud to see you're becoming strong. :)
Jia you. :)

I feel like an utter bitch for everything. ):
From start till the end. ):
Not that I wasn't true. But yah. ):
But damn. I rather make myself clear. ):

2010-01-31T12:23:00.008+08:00

I think bastards who:

Place their bills under their girlfriends name.
Leaving a bill of freaking 700 bucks.
And a termination of contract of additional 200 bucks.
And being uncontactable again ever since.

Really really really do not deserve to live.

): I think gotta learn how to protect yourself.
Even though, you might trust him or love him a lot.
It doesn't give you any reason to compromise on the chances of you being hurt/made used of.
Gotta stand up for yourself cause, why would anyone stand up for you.
If you don't even love yourself enough to ensure that, you don't get made use of? ):
It's like telling everyone that it's okay to make use of me. ):

): Ah wells. What's done's done. ):
Move on. ):

HAHA. Huijing is project free after tml.
Would you believe it? HAHA. :)

I am gonna pamper myself.
And reward myself greatly tml~!!
(I just haven decided how yet) :D

Dance from your heart.
Feel the beats.
Feel the rhythm.
Just feel. :)

2010-01-30T13:40:00.003+08:00

Road trip/Tour to Europe sounds awesome. :)

Now.

Does anyone wanna help me kidnap my parents for 3 weeks?
HAHA. :D

2010-01-29T22:48:00.003+08:00

Xinyi and I agreed to exchange diamonds on our 21st birthday.
Well, pendant. :) Something well, special. :)
God, that dman-ed rock's gonna cost a bomb~!! HAHA.
Times like this. I wish I had a money printer.
HAHA. okay scratch that. I mean. Doesn't everyone wish that?
Even more so for me now. :)

I love her. To bits. :)

Cartel, our usual hangout place. Pfft.
Well, there isn't any restaurant cosier that serves WESTERN meals in Tampines mall, so yah.

Girl, I think we need to do something spontaneous. HAHA. :D
Seriously. Lols.

Zorro when he waslike 3 mths old.HAHA.

2010-01-28T21:49:00.010+08:00

Darn, I think I'm practically married to my projects. HAHA.
It's like a damn possessive boyfriend.
It keeps bugging and bugging and bugging me.

Oh yes yes. Thou shan't complain any longer~~

Anyways. I went out with hongyu~!! :D
We just crapped and crapped and crapped like old times. :D
Played a lot. Had fun. :D :D
Isn't it great? HAHAHA. :D

Or as a matter of fact.
Aren't friends great? :)

I will be braver. :)
I think I really need to grow braver. HAHA.
Face all my damn fears. :)

Let individuality make your mark.

2010-01-27T14:05:00.007+08:00

Yay. Omg. Pictures~!! Pictures~!!!
DAMN DAMN HAPPY. :D
Whoo~!!!

Yanti's 20th. :D

I will kill Sam for all the candids. Wth is this?
HAHAHA. :D And the last one? lols. :)

Yay. I think I'm too free.
I actaullly got to blog twice. :)

MY FRIENDS ROCK BIG TIME. :D

2010-01-27T06:40:00.002+08:00

Measure of a man. :)

If one day you discover him
Broken down he's lost everything
No cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not
The woman at his side is all that he has got
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of every day
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?

Why do you ask him to move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth
Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up to be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

He never gives up
Lets go of his dream
His world goes around for his one true belief
Is that how you know
Is that what it means?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
Would he will be your anchor when the dark unfolds
Would he always love you the best that he knows?

Would he give his life up
To be all that he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can

Is that, is that, is that, how you measure oh...

Is that, is that, is that, how your measure a man?

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Thailand pictures~!!

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Don ask me what I'm doing at this insane hour.
I'm up doing projects and studying. O.O

CPF statements
Income and expenditure statements.
Financial statements
Financial position statements.

All statements suck. D:<

2010-01-26T15:04:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps~!! I'm pretty much back. :)
The purpose I joined concert this performance's is not really to perform.
But more of to improve. Well, with that clear objective, I feel better now. :D
I'll give it my all no matter what. :D
And well, since I decided to take a break from my hetic schedule.
I'm going down to register for my BTT today. :D

I like being busy. Well, not with school work.
But more of my own things. :D

The bright side of last night.
I feel even more independent today. :)
And sneaking out on weekdays, is a big no no man.
Hahahahaa. Really beats me as to how I managed to crawl up for lecture today. LOLS. :)

I'll probably grab a book and head down to Starbucks to spend some time alone. :)
Feels AWESOME finally being able to do that. :D

Side note, I better start revising soon. :)

2010-01-25T21:55:00.003+08:00

I wanna cry.
I wanna cry.
I wanna cry.
I feel so small now.
I haven felt like this in ages.

God I screwed my auditions.
It's even worse than my 1st time dancing. -.-
I haven really cried so badly in ages.
But I promise. I'll pick myself up and be alright again tml. :)

Becasue I got another 3 auditions waiting for me. -.-
And I bloody cant afford to be like that.

I'm deproving. Like mad.
I wonder what's wrong.
Gotta get it figured out. Before it snowballs.
And I'm screwed.

2010-01-24T11:43:00.003+08:00

I agree to what xinyi says~!!
I dun think anyone starts a relationship thinking of the end of it.
Even though circumstances might change through the relationship.
But until that happens, you're still supposed to give your utmost faith that it won't. :)
It's somewhat called, giving your all I guess. :)

And if you SIMPLY CAN'T believe it's gonna last no matter how hard you try,
I suppose. he might not be the right one for you yet.
And therefore, just keep searching. :) :)
Cause if he is the right one, he'll have the means and capabilities to make you feel safe.
So that, well, you don't ever have to feel like that.

O.O *stares* does anyone get my point? HAHA.

Basically, it takes the right partner and your own mindset to believe. :)

Huijing seriously needs to make time for herself.
To enjoy my own company~!!
Shop alone.
Read books.
And go cycling, explore. Hike up mount faber. blahblah.
Which I cant ever seem to find the time to do.

And damn bloody hell, a job.):
Holidays~!! come soon~!!

AND I WANNA TAKE MY BTT.
Gah. Shall register next week. :)
If dance projects tests and whatever not, decides to be kind and give me a break.

2010-01-22T16:31:00.002+08:00

Well, I'll be busy like a mad dog these few days.
I got a damned test plus project submission and napfa and dance on monday.

Tml. I have dance, followed by a movie and night cycling. :)
Which means I won't get to sleep and
And sunday I have project meeting and dear family outing.

I'm a goner. Plus. I have to finish law, financial planning and financial analysis by sunday.

HAHA. :)
YAH. It's getting freaking dull here.
I'll make it more interesting.
When I have the bloody time.

Well, I'll be as good these few days.
So no point contacting me. HAHA. :)

BYE peeps. :D

2010-01-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

I will emo.
I will cry.
I will be upset.
I will feel lonely.

But I know. What has to be done.

And I know in time. I will be as right as rain again.

2010-01-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

Hugs myself*
There's a lot of things going through my mind these days.

Projects. Tests. Dance. Friends.

Well, My relationship ain't doing so well either. ):
I dun know what I want anymore.
And even though I'm able to come up with an ans, that'll say yes.
But for how long more? ): 2 days? Before, I get unsure again? ):

I need time. Really. A lot of it.
And as much as I would love to address this issue now.
Time is yet again, the factor.

Dance is taking so much of my time. I get to start projects.
Well, only now. And I have a test on Thurs.
Which weighs bloody 30 percent. And I've barely started. ):
And I have a deadline tml.

And dun even get me started on dance.
I trained so bloody hard.
My knuckles are gonna drop off.
I've improved DAMN lot. Which is true.
But it's not enough. )):

I cant learn a cheoro and audit on the spot. D:
I will die very badly. ):

Urgh. ): Next time we're squeezing into one studio.
I'm taking the front. It doesn really pay to be nice. ):
I couldn't even see myself when learning steps. )):

It's really depressing seeing people get picked out one by one.
And you're well, left behind with the other 100 people.
OH. litterlly 100.

Well, as upset and demoralized as I am.
:) I'll still be optimistic eventually.
Haha. I'll still give my 100 percentno matter what the circumstance. :)

AND YES, NEXT TIME WE AUDIT FOR HH.
I'M GONNA STAND RIGHT IN FRONT OF INSTRUCTOR GIN.
WITH HUNDRED ODD PEOPLE WATCHING.

Mark my words. :)

2010-01-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

Life as a dancer = no life. :)
Almost all my nights have to be committed to GEMS trainings from today.
Plus school work projects and all. D:
I might not even have time to meet baby.

Though I will try my very best to squeeze in everything. :)

Sometimes, I do wonder to myself really. D:

2010-01-12T00:01:00.003+08:00

Don't push it.

2010-01-11T12:11:00.006+08:00

Fairy Tales.
Once upon time, I suppose it was my sorta thing. :)

Now it's nothing, but say-sos and whatever not.

Previous broken relationships were harsh to me on their lessons.
But I never regret anyone of them. :))

Made me grow. :)

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My -ahem- 2010 resolutions.

1. Treat everyone around me better.
Be it friends, my boyfriend, my family or even Zorro. :)
Oh, speaking of which. Zorro has ticks.-.-My poor boy is scratching his skin out. DD:

2. Plan where to go after graduation
Well, I've narrowed into two career paths. Well, but I'm still pretty unsure about where. I know I'm taking forever to decide. -.- I just don't wanna make a hasty decision. Like accountings. Omg. Biggest regret of my life. -.- What possessed me man? -.-

3. I will not drink unless necessary.
Which means. When I'm upset. Or. When there's some -whatever happy- occasion.

4. Try to be even more independent.
Maybe not emotionally. I'm fine with that already. :) But more of. Financially and all. But. Gems is coming. -.- And my workload is shit.

5. Be VERY happy. :D
This is very very important. :) I will smile and stay happy and strong always. Even if shit falls on me. :) :) HAHA. :)

Projects. Tests. Projects. Test. Projects. Test. Projects. Tests.
Oh and my school is still covering at an insane speed.
-curses silently-

OH, BTW, HUIJING MISSES SHASHIMI AND STEAK.
-hints to xinyi- :)

2010-01-05T15:40:00.002+08:00

:) I have great friends. :)

Friends whom are there to remind me.
Not to be late. Be independent. Etc etc.

Friends whom I can day dream about the future with.
About what life to have and such.

Friends whom look after me in school.

Friends whose company is just well, one of a kind and irreplaceable. :)

Friends whom I have random supper with.

Friends whom I can tell anything to.

Friends whom I can be myself with.

Etc.

Etc.

All in all,
Huijing's feeling blessed, loved and extremely happy.

Thank you for all who have been and still are part of my life. :)

2010-01-04T21:51:00.001+08:00

Hi people. :D
I'm back from Thailand. :D

Oh it was great. :D
I'll post photos soon. :)

2010 new year resolutions would have to wait.
Cause Huijing has a test coming up on wed.
And it's not helping that I'm STILL sick. DD:

Screw this persistent cough. DD:

So much happened within last year.
And neither am I the same small girl-y anymore.
:) I've grown a lot. Learnt to love myself.
Be more independent. Mature. :)

And I plan to be more the upcoming year. :)

2009-12-27T22:09:00.003+08:00

Individuality. :)
It's what defines you. What makes you. :)
Tiny little individual things that well, make you unique. :)

Or should I say at least more unique. :)

Hugs.
Baby. I love you. <3

Thank you. For being part of my life. <3

2009-12-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

Cousins. :D Swim. Badminton. Sweensens.
It's really tiring to have to play with young kids.

:) I'll spare everyone the details tough. :D
Oh, nice me. :)

I had fun though. :D

I feel like changing my name again. -.-

2009-12-25T23:41:00.003+08:00

Thank you baby. For giving me such a memorable Chrsitmas.
It's the best one ever.
I had tears flowing out non-stop out of my eyes in the cinema.
And darn, he had to wipe them away for me. :)

Everything you buy, means so god damn much to me.

Tulips. My favorite flower. :D
He remembered. :D

Inside the box~!!!

And a card~!!! :D
I'll post more pictures of the rings and all
when he passes to me. :D

Thanks baby. :D
YOU ROCK BIG TIME.
I'm so happy to have you. :D

2009-12-24T13:23:00.005+08:00

Huggs myself**

Friends. DD:
Came to ponder on what it truly meant today.
Where were all the great times?

I'm not upset. But yes. I miss them.

Wells.
I'll stay happy. :) HAHA. :)

It has been great these few days.
A lot of enjoying my company. :)
More relaxed. Happier. :)
And much more independent and stronger too.

And of course, with baby by my side too. :)
Goddmanit. :) I love him very much.

:D It has all-in-all been great. :D

2009-12-22T10:36:00.008+08:00

I'm having fever AGAIN. DDD:
Damn it. DD:

No. I'm not gonna whine. :))
About my head splitting and whatever not.
But. I really do hate being sick. DD:

2009-12-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

Tonight. With you.
Was totally awesome. <3

Thank you.
My love.

2009-12-21T10:04:00.006+08:00

H-U-N-G-R-Y

It's the only word I know these days. DD:

Photos. :)

I swear. baby is damn gross. -.-

Oh, side note?

Avatar is awesome. :D

It's a must watch show. :D

God. I need to make time for myself. DD:
Damn the darn projects. DD:

2009-12-16T23:55:00.004+08:00

I got 3 projects to rush.
3 places to run tml.
4 groups of people to meet tml.

I just came back from dancing like fuck.

And we just fought.
I'm really stressed.

Do I really need anymore?

Take care of yourself.
I love you baby.

Alone.Tonight.

2009-12-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

dance dance dance~!!!
1pm to 10pm. :D

Awesome.

2009-12-15T09:43:00.005+08:00

These few days have been incredibly awesome.
Though it felt like I was hardly awake for it. HAHA.

Believe me. I never got past those 2 lines. HAHA.

The stage was amazingly. HUGE. :D
Though formation change was hellish in the never-reaching-in-time sotta way.
But all in all great~!!! Loved having performed on such a HUGE/grand-ish stage. :D

I mean. The backstage/ multiple dressing rooms comprises of 4 stories.
Ahh. Awesome no? :D For every bloody person who calls himself a performer.
It's freaking awesome. :D :D

I had fun. Awesome crazy mad fun on stage.
But I'm not exactly very keen in drowning or boring you all with details.
So I'll leave it as it is. :D HAHA.

Lastly. Though I needed a lot of time alone before performance.
I would very much like to express that.
I wouldn't have made it anywhere without my dear baby.
Thank you for being part of my life.

You're just amazing.

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I particularly enjoy it when everyone else is asleep.
It's the only time.When I have time to pamper/relax/enjoy my own company in peace.
Where I do my mask. Read my books. Make my favorite snacks to eat.
Take a nice hot bath. Just pamper myself you know? :)
Feels TRULY undisturbed compared to the day.

Am I making sense? :D

Damn it. G-R-O-W~!!
you darn hair. DDDDDDD:

2009-12-10T22:24:00.001+08:00

Smile*
Baby came over todayy.

2009-12-08T18:27:00.004+08:00

Dear bloggie,

Today is such a significant day to me dear bloggie. Dear dear gorgeous sweetheart never ever fails to leave a sun scorching, tingling i-can-so-fucking-reach-the-stars sensation in my heart. His stunning but oh-so-fabulous ability to pop slient surprises out on me always leaves me giggling to myself in awe yet idiocy, or melting like damn butter upon red hot, glazing fire. Isn't he just SIMPLY marvelous-ly irresistible dear bloggie? hugs**

Happy 77th baby. And it's so amazing how it still feels brand new with you, my love.

I love you so much. <3

Hi people. :D It's rather dis-pleasing to hear.
But somehow, I would totally be able to equate to stress now. DD:

DD: Note: IT's only the 2nd week of school people.
But at the end of the week.
My dear dear marvelous lecturers. Would somehow.
Have covered.

-6 topics of consumer banking.
-4 topics of law.
-4 topic of financial analysis.
-4 topics of personal financial planning.

Add up the projects and tutorials for each module and topic.
And you'll faint at the sight of how much has to be done. T.T
It's pure torture I tell you. DD:

And darn. Dance isn't exactly being kind to me too.
Recital performance is this Sunday.
Goddamnit.

I'll cope. I gotta find a night to study on my work though. DD:
Like really start trying to remember all the points.
And not just pure understanding of it? DD: Gosh.

2009-12-05T10:14:00.004+08:00

I had the best time yest.
Sure my stomach was cramping up like mad.
But whatever. :)

:D Another madly fun day with my bestie. :D
I had to pick her up from the bus stop cause it was raining like mad. :D
We ended up screaming while walking through muddy patches. :D
kicking water at each other. getting each other wet. :D
Bathed. Watched movies. Headed to Michael's place to eat. :D

Dance was awesome too. :D Muhahas.

Great day. :D
My stomach muscles actually hurt today. O.O

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Be. Happy. With. Whatever. You. Want. To. Think.
I'm. Sick. Of. Convincing. You. Guys.
I. Actually. Don't Give. Much. Of. A. Damn.
As. Long. As. I. Know. I'm. Happily. Living. My. Life. With. Baby. Now. :)

2009-12-04T11:48:00.004+08:00

Cramps plus dance. Never a good combination. DD:
It's gonna drain off all my energy again. DD:
Ah darn. DD:
No. I'm not gonna stop dancing later.
Neither am I gonna whine about it either. :)

Mine.

And his.

:)

2009-12-03T14:30:00.006+08:00

I somehow think my life is meant to be devoted to work.
It's piling up like stacks and stacks of old magazines.
I cleared a lot. a lot. But somehow. There's always some darn few pieces left.

P.S. Its only the 1st week of school. DD:

DD: What to do? It's fine if it's work work. As in wages and pay work.
Sure, the hours are a murderer, but the benefits are awesome.
Financial independence. Freedom. Stuff and all.
Like. I finally will feel like a grown up.
I'll feel great about myself.
But school work's -.- lame.

HAHA. But well. But it's always like what they say.
Grass on the other side's always greener.
Ah wells. :)

Life's been great. :D
Korean lesson yest was terrible. I dun know anything. D:
I have a terrible need to revise. DD:
And now i'm at my bestie's place supposedly doing work. :) HAHA. :D

If you see this now. :D
I love you Xinyi. :)
I know you like red TOO. :D
Muhahahahha. :D

Paper balls. Throw. Stuff into boobs. :D Noisy songs. :D Overcooked Korean noodles. :D Chocolate. Cartel. Chocolate cake. :D Wedges. Cappochino. :D Half a movie. Work. Work Work. :D Failed whistles. :D Her noisy singing. :D And secret talks over msn to each other. Not getting caught by her mom. :D HAHA.

Like kids eh. But its fun. :D

:D Done by (Xinyi's mum) :D

Fun. :D That's how life is supposed to be.

2009-12-03T00:52:00.006+08:00

Moulin Rouge.
It's old. :)

But fucking awesome. :)
Well at least I think so. Muahahas.
Its romantic AND oh-so-sweet. :D

My back muscles might simply give way any moment.
But gah. Thou shall NOT whine about it.
It's a personal decision to dance THAT much.
I guess it doesn't make sense if I whine about it. :)

Love lifts us up where we belong. :)

2009-11-30T19:39:00.010+08:00

Hi people. :D Muhahahas. Guess what? Guess what? :D
I extremely surprisingly. Just shot awake at 8am today. DD:
HAHA. Yah. Wow right? considering how much of a pig I am. :D
Who's proud of me?!! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
But ahh. Too bad for me.
School simply had to start at 3pm today.
Gah. HAHA. Its pretty much irritating uh?

Darn my biological clock. DD:
Left me with goodness, erm. 7 hours kill by myself.

Anyways. So poor alone me.
Decided to hit the gyms after loads of wasted "lazing arounds".
On the consideration, that, well. HAHA. I'm getting fat. :D
Yes. Yes. Roll your eyes people.
I'm gonna very much ignore you ALL. :D HAHA. :)

After which. I headed to TM.
To grab a story book and files for my damn school work.
AND AND AND. A cup of darn darn yummy coffee and cheese cake at starbucks. :)
I love pampering myself, Feels awesome. :D
And sat down to do my monthly schedule for December. T.T

Starbucks coffee's awesome. Don't you think so?
There's this erm. THINGY. inside that never fails to stimulate all the happy hormones and :D
You get it. I'm damn HAPPY now. :D HAHA.

Went home. :) HAHA.
Met Calendar and Kamil after. :D
And headed off for lecture. Zzz.
Which never fails to end up either as a crapping session,
poking fun at various lecturers session,
Or as a "MUHAHA. I shall draw on your book session."

Anyways. :)

I collected my specs after and headed to dance. :D Muhahaha.
And got home to do my tutorials. :D HAHA. :)
All of them :)
Busy busy busy. :)

PICTURES. :D

HI YOU.
THE ONE BELOW.

Hi please hop into my mouth. -.-
I'm craving for sushi. D:

DD: Once again. I don't know.
The feeling comes again. D:
It's troubling me. Very bad. D:
If this continues, I fear the worst.

But I shall always be happy. :D HAHA. :)
I'm happy. But I could be happier.
It's okay. I am still capable of making myself happy.

LOLLIPOP~~~~~ :DDDDDDDDDD
yummy yummy yummy. :D
Yay. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Hmm.

2009-11-30T18:53:00.003+08:00

I guess you gotta have a period of unsweetness.
To know what's sweet. :)

So I guess its petty normal. :)

The hard part is. Realizing that those moments are slipping away.
Because this unromantic life has become your normal routine. :)
Its hard to find anything amiss.
And of course. Getting back where we started. :)

Its no wonder others say.
Its great to always. re-chase the person.
Revives the sweetest moments. :)
Guess. I know what it means now. :)

This post is rather shallow. -.-
But whatever. I'm real tired. :)

Relationships, to me, is a combination of sweet and fun. :)
Crazy things you'll only do with each other. Like. :)
Chasing each other down the beach. :D
Exploring different places. Crazy bets. Mad forefits. :)
Fun fun fun. :)
In which you can laugh crazily at.
Keeping memories. :)
Mad mad expressing of love. :)
Its like the best two things in the word combined.
Loads of laughter and Love.
Or a friend and lover. :)
And not get too used to the sweetness of it all.
And most importantly.
Without neglecting your own life.
Cause its so bloody awesome to be in love. :)

I got a feeling its gonna be a great week.
And of course. I'm gonna make it great for him too.

I love my bestie a lot.
I love DANCE a lot.
Last but definitely not the least in my heart,
I love you a lot too..

I'm not afraid to fall in love. I'm not afraid of being hurt emotionally.
I'm more afraid of losing balance and hurting your feelings and my life.

2009-11-29T22:07:00.005+08:00

I am done.

Tml's agenda.
Kamil. School. Lunch. :D Dim Sum. Xinyi. Aileen. Dance. :D

Every decision has consequences.
Just that. If the consequence is worth it compared to one's happiness.
Since I made this decision.
I'll live with it. And yes. I will still be happy.

2009-11-29T01:57:00.003+08:00

I think. My throat had ulcers. -.-

Yes yes. I should be asleep.
My brain refuses to stop working though.

I need one day alone to clean up my steps.
I keep cutting them.
Feel is alright.Just lacking at certain parts.
Feel and techniques must balance.
Now expression. :)

TRAGIC. DD:
Its like starting dance all over again. DD:

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

Today.
Dance classes. :D home. freestyle. wash car. dinner with parents.
and recital. 3 long hours. T.T ended at 11.30pm. DDD:
Tml at 11am again. DD:

thank you for the orange juice baby,
i love you.