Friday, November 13, 2009
Melody. :)
Stop being so stupid.
Boyfriends are there for things you cant handle alone.
Things you can handle alone.
You jolly well do so.
Stop complaining and whining about your daily life.
Stop being timid.
Where are your strong opinions like before when you 1st started out?
Where's your darn brain. Enough nonsense, you.
Or I'll smack you inside out upside down and put you into your grave.
Another unnecessary teardrop and I will kill you.
No I mean it.
I do expect you not to decrease in emotional control.
So you better not let it drop any further.
Enough. Seriously. Enough.
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I decide. That. I will be going overseas after all.
I can't compromise on my future.
I've accepted it. Oh yes. Most likely UK.
And darn. Now its the time to face it.
Oh yes. Hell I am scared as ever.
But its a small problem.
I shall and will still stay happy. :))
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Part of independence is being able to keep oneself happy.
Don't you agree? :D Emotional independence that is. :)
And I seem to be losing that aspect.
Being able to keep myself happy. that is. Which is terrible.
And I seem to not love myself as much anymore.
And I'm not as confident that I can take care of myself anymore.
Oh my right? HAHA. I know.
And I do know. Its a matter of mindset for this. :))
Oh yes it is. :))
Anyway, speaking of which.
I cant wait for my school to start. And my work load to settle down.
Its only then mummy will allow me to get a real job. :)
Den I will be financially supporting myself.
Den I'll try to pay my own phone bills. :D
Step by step I know. :)
School. Please start soon? DD: HAHA.
Stop being so stupid.
Boyfriends are there for things you cant handle alone.
Things you can handle alone.
You jolly well do so.
Stop complaining and whining about your daily life.
Stop being timid.
Where are your strong opinions like before when you 1st started out?
Where's your darn brain. Enough nonsense, you.
Or I'll smack you inside out upside down and put you into your grave.
Another unnecessary teardrop and I will kill you.
No I mean it.
I do expect you not to decrease in emotional control.
So you better not let it drop any further.
Enough. Seriously. Enough.
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I decide. That. I will be going overseas after all.
I can't compromise on my future.
I've accepted it. Oh yes. Most likely UK.
And darn. Now its the time to face it.
Oh yes. Hell I am scared as ever.
But its a small problem.
I shall and will still stay happy. :))
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Part of independence is being able to keep oneself happy.
Don't you agree? :D Emotional independence that is. :)
And I seem to be losing that aspect.
Being able to keep myself happy. that is. Which is terrible.
And I seem to not love myself as much anymore.
And I'm not as confident that I can take care of myself anymore.
Oh my right? HAHA. I know.
And I do know. Its a matter of mindset for this. :))
Oh yes it is. :))
Anyway, speaking of which.
I cant wait for my school to start. And my work load to settle down.
Its only then mummy will allow me to get a real job. :)
Den I will be financially supporting myself.
Den I'll try to pay my own phone bills. :D
Step by step I know. :)
School. Please start soon? DD: HAHA.
at 11:54 PM
