Sunday, November 22, 2009
I believe if something gets you down.
You should bring yourself up.
Once and for all no?
And never let it hit you again.
Well, thats ideally.
I tried today. :)
And it was great. I was happily in my corner cleaning up my own steps.
Until someone asked me.
Aren't you upset?
And she said she wanted to talk to Allegra.
About letting us in. But. I feel everyone has done formations.
It'll be damn unfair to them. So even though I wanted to be in.
I had to say. I'm not in for it. And I won't talk to Allegra.
Which feels like crap. Feels like. Fuck.
Its a team thing. :) And I feel top priority is the item.
But at the same time.
I feel I dui bu qi myself.
Recital is bringing me down instead of up.
It's affecting my everyday confidence like shit.
It'll be damn irresponsible if i quit now.
But I feel I am being thrown bricks at every time I'm there.
I'll be happy. Or at least try to be. :)
HAHA. But recital's gonna be one of the bottom of my priorities.
I'll do my best for it though.
Make sure my steps are clean den ciao.
This is really the 1st time.
I dun feel like performing at all.
And after this. I'm cooping myself up to train. :)
I dun really wanna go for anymore performances.
Till at least get back my confidence.
I'm strong. :D I can do this. :)
I'll try not to let it affect me again. Tml. :)
It's like internal battle.
You should bring yourself up.
Once and for all no?
And never let it hit you again.
Well, thats ideally.
I tried today. :)
And it was great. I was happily in my corner cleaning up my own steps.
Until someone asked me.
Aren't you upset?
And she said she wanted to talk to Allegra.
About letting us in. But. I feel everyone has done formations.
It'll be damn unfair to them. So even though I wanted to be in.
I had to say. I'm not in for it. And I won't talk to Allegra.
Which feels like crap. Feels like. Fuck.
Its a team thing. :) And I feel top priority is the item.
But at the same time.
I feel I dui bu qi myself.
Recital is bringing me down instead of up.
It's affecting my everyday confidence like shit.
It'll be damn irresponsible if i quit now.
But I feel I am being thrown bricks at every time I'm there.
I'll be happy. Or at least try to be. :)
HAHA. But recital's gonna be one of the bottom of my priorities.
I'll do my best for it though.
Make sure my steps are clean den ciao.
This is really the 1st time.
I dun feel like performing at all.
And after this. I'm cooping myself up to train. :)
I dun really wanna go for anymore performances.
Till at least get back my confidence.
I'm strong. :D I can do this. :)
I'll try not to let it affect me again. Tml. :)
It's like internal battle.
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