Friday, October 9, 2009
I feel like screaming tonight.
Scream it all out.
All the pain. Agony.
Alongside with all the darn nausea headache and that vomiting feeling inside of me.
The times when I screwed up my dance.
The times when I screwed up the auditions
The times when I feel like a fucking failure.
The times when I let my confidence slip away.
Or when mummy nags machine gun bullets at me.
Or how she bugs me FOR HOURS (literally) to break up with my dear boyfriend.
I held it all in. I've never fought back with her.
Neither did I let my "I am a fucking failure/ I am a darn screw up/ What the heck is wrong with me" feeling take over me.
I've always managed to brush it aside.
This is just my breaking point.
I'm alright luh. :) DON'T WORRY.
I just need to recuperate.
Being sick just saps away my strength like 5 times as fast or something.
Even my ears are blocked.
I can't hear a thing. -.-
Melody.
Scream it all out.
All the pain. Agony.
Alongside with all the darn nausea headache and that vomiting feeling inside of me.
The times when I screwed up my dance.
The times when I screwed up the auditions
The times when I feel like a fucking failure.
The times when I let my confidence slip away.
Or when mummy nags machine gun bullets at me.
Or how she bugs me FOR HOURS (literally) to break up with my dear boyfriend.
I held it all in. I've never fought back with her.
Neither did I let my "I am a fucking failure/ I am a darn screw up/ What the heck is wrong with me" feeling take over me.
I've always managed to brush it aside.
This is just my breaking point.
I'm alright luh. :) DON'T WORRY.
I just need to recuperate.
Being sick just saps away my strength like 5 times as fast or something.
Even my ears are blocked.
I can't hear a thing. -.-
Melody.
at 11:03 PM
