Thursday, August 13, 2009
)))))))): I am an extremely easy person to bully right?
I'm disappointed today. Majorly disappointed.
As I walked home alone.
I cried. )):
I compromised on how I am treated again.
I have this major problem. As a lover or friend. )):
I'd let myself be treated harshly or be said mean things to.
Because I love the person. )): And I dun wanna make the person feel terrible.
Which shouldn't be the case. )):
I'd find excuses in my head to cover up for the harsh ways they treat me.
And soon the person thinks that it's okay to do so.
And soon they'd think they're always right.
And, it's normal.
My previous relationship was like that.
So is this friendship. )):
This shows one thing.
I'm not ready to love yet.
Cause. I'm gonna be digging my own grave.
)): Maybe I'm way too understanding already. )):
I mean they are not even making up excuses for themselves about how they treat me and all.
And I'd be making excuses for them in my head.
Even they can't be bothered to explain themselves to me.
Den why am I trying to explain for them? )))):
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please ignore this today. I'm ranting.
I'm just.
Disappointed. Extremely disappointed. With myself.
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I would like to thank ALL my group mates for their patience.
Because my alignment sucks. It takes 300 years to clean my lines.
I'll do my best to remember and catch everything.
Thanks for not giving up on me. ((:
Serene thanks for personal cleaning up. HAHA. ((:
Mev thanks for your reteaching. :D
Nicole thanks for the re re teaching. HAHA. ((:
Hakeem for videoing me and telling me where's wrong.
Fahana and Jas for the encouragements and teaching.
And Hakeem I'll try my best not be be stressed if you clean me up. :D I promise.
And please don't be scared to pin point my mistakes.
I really really really wanna know them.
I really really need to know them.
I wanna learn. I really wanna learn.
Melody.
I'm disappointed today. Majorly disappointed.
As I walked home alone.
I cried. )):
I compromised on how I am treated again.
I have this major problem. As a lover or friend. )):
I'd let myself be treated harshly or be said mean things to.
Because I love the person. )): And I dun wanna make the person feel terrible.
Which shouldn't be the case. )):
I'd find excuses in my head to cover up for the harsh ways they treat me.
And soon the person thinks that it's okay to do so.
And soon they'd think they're always right.
And, it's normal.
My previous relationship was like that.
So is this friendship. )):
This shows one thing.
I'm not ready to love yet.
Cause. I'm gonna be digging my own grave.
)): Maybe I'm way too understanding already. )):
I mean they are not even making up excuses for themselves about how they treat me and all.
And I'd be making excuses for them in my head.
Even they can't be bothered to explain themselves to me.
Den why am I trying to explain for them? )))):
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please ignore this today. I'm ranting.
I'm just.
Disappointed. Extremely disappointed. With myself.
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I would like to thank ALL my group mates for their patience.
Because my alignment sucks. It takes 300 years to clean my lines.
I'll do my best to remember and catch everything.
Thanks for not giving up on me. ((:
Serene thanks for personal cleaning up. HAHA. ((:
Mev thanks for your reteaching. :D
Nicole thanks for the re re teaching. HAHA. ((:
Hakeem for videoing me and telling me where's wrong.
Fahana and Jas for the encouragements and teaching.
And Hakeem I'll try my best not be be stressed if you clean me up. :D I promise.
And please don't be scared to pin point my mistakes.
I really really really wanna know them.
I really really need to know them.
I wanna learn. I really wanna learn.
Melody.
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